`Saturday, December 11, 2004;__
i feel so so sick these few days.
i dun noe y. but everywhere i go
i feel so cold!i stay at home and sleep,
i feel cold? yea and i wear my jacket
and stuff but i still feel so cold
and worst still i'm shiverin!
i'm so weak now. i didnt have
the mood doin anythin except
S-L-E-E-P-I-N-G!!!
i'm jus too tired to do anythin!
i dun even feel lk movin my ass.
pffft. wad's wrong with me?
y do i feel this way?
my goosebumps appear
every now and then.. tts so
disgaustin!
haiz so yea i'm always so weak!
cant do anythin. and no use
takin those medicines EVERYDAY.
i guess is really useless!.
i didnt get any better in any way.
i feel worst! i fell so weak after i
took the medicine! i feel sleepy!
i feel lk i'm gonna die soon real
soon! coz is jus a torturin for me
to take those medicines!
wads more the medicines r lk
LIDUID form? fuck tt ..
i hate it! its jus so sucky!
so yup went down to buy dinner
with my bro.. guess wad? i was
shiverin with cold! i feel tt
way everytime when i'm
at the expose area!
so yea passby the fairprice
and tts the exact place where
a young lady threw her new born
baby down the buildin! -fewdays ago!-
eek.. and i was lk crazy and
keep thinkin of tt incident! yuccks.
so my bro said i'm crazy? i really am!
hahas..
did i mention tt i asked him out?
yesh yesh i did! but obviously
he reject me in a very'nice' way!
which can be so 'nice' tt my
brokenheart shattered into
million pieces once more!
everythin he said simply hurts me!
maybe he dun feel tt way coz he turn
me down in a very 'nice' way!
boii, i wudnt eat u up when i see u!
i wouldnt scream or wadever when
i meet u! and further more i woundt
even hug u or kiss u when i see u again!
i woudnt dare to look into ur eyes!
and i wouldnt dare to tok to u!
AND u asked y do i wanna meet u ?
boii u noe by askin tt makes me think
tt u dun ever want to see me again!!
i jus wanna see u for one last time!
well maybe next time i might still
bump into u somewhere or wadsoever
but tts gonna be totally different!
coz i'm very sure when i see u the nxt
time i probably gonna avoid u!
for this one last time i hope to see u!
but u r so reluctant! u hate to see me?
u dun wish to see me anymore?
u dun wish me to appear in ur own
world anymore? n u dun wish to
have HuiJuan exist in this world?
boii. jus tell me if u think tt way!
i'll make sure i'll NEVER appear
infront of u!dun have to find excuses
sayin how busy u r! coz u aint
lk tt b 4 we break! and out of
of sudden u said u're so busy!
busy with this and that!maybe u're
really tt busy! but cant u spare
some time to go out with me jus
for tt one last time in our life time?
dun say u see first coz bullshit u do!
u said u see first lk before ur camp?
till now? how many days u want to see?
jus let me noe if u really dun wish
to meet me again! dun make me
wait for ur ''see first'' lk a fool here!
-let me noe if tts wad u're thinkin!-
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:22 PM;__
